Pretty DAMN L-O-N-G entry, don't fall asleep please... These few days the weather can be scorching hot for this moment, and freezing cold next. Want to go out also dunno how to plan, weather forecast was never accurate... Later planned activities for fine weather, it rained and vice versa. Feeling very irritated.

And also, dunno why ever since Thursday I ate that Kimchi ramen from Century Square foodcourt, I visit the toilet at least 5 times per day, last week I ate the same ramen 4 times a week also never tio daiji... dunno why this time kena... Very painful. My throat, now very dry and sore, also painful. But swallow saliva isn't painful anymore.

Feeling part...
And since the beginning of 2008, I keep feeling uneasy that I owe someone something(What a nice way to start off the year...) But then I had no chance to settle that something. Make me feel very uneasy, the feeling is like you know you make him or her feel very irritated, and it seems weird to talk to that person just to talk about the something or to see how the other party is feeling about it without any other topic to touch on... -.- Ok... I know I'm not making any sense as I can't say much about it, but this is just how I feel.

Well it's not something big, just a small case. But precisely that it's just a small issue and it's already bothering me so much to the extent that I'm feeling bad about it...(There's someone who owe even more) I dunno how can 'someone' be so thick skin and act so nonchantly about it, making it sound as though it's nothing at all. All the promises that was being made thrown behind his/her back just like how we dumped 2007 behind. Where-are-your-morals...?

I hope that this won't make my fren feel unhappy, or maybe I'm thinking too much... Either way, one of my year 2008 resolution is 'to be a better fren to my pals'. 不是讲好听的... I really want to achieve it...

School work so far still ok, but block teaching mode, time is very little and everything is very rushed. We just started off last week, and all the subjects will end 6 weeks later with all the assignments submitted... I hope I can pass...(It's another year 2008 resolution) As next sem, I'll be retaking another subject, fail the main and the supp and it's goodbye...

My parents tell me that if I have no interests in the course I can drop out, no objections about it. As much as I want to quit, I won't. Partly is I don't wanna be a deserter, that stupid stinkbomb and that 'Q mor'(curly hair) who slack in class and doesn't contribute to their group project and goes to gaming lab to play game can have the cheek to stay, why should I leave before they do/drop out/KICKed out.

I don't wanna lose to losers

Secondly, quit means go NS straight. It's something that sooner or later I will face. But NOT now... not before Sin Huey release her 2nd album and I did all I can to support her. I just want to see her shine. (A year 2008 wish) "Kimi wa... hitori ja nai..."

Rather the issue with fren than schoolwork, the latter doesn't give me stress where it should. Dunno whether it's a good thing or not... to feel no or little stress, no stress literally means no motivation for me to excel in my work. And I also heard that stress can make a person slimmer... man... Jiande must be having a relaxed lifestyle... I am just kidding! K.I.D.D.I.N.G... Hopefully I can be rid of that feeling soon... Especially that friend is a close one...

End of the long entry, just typed out all my feelings that is bottled up in me. Feeling more at ease now... Even if no one reads it, the purpose was already fulfilled.

Signing off:
Kirra

Penned by: Kirra